Why I Left the NDA despite My Dream

From my childhood, medicine had always been my passion, but my love for the army was even stronger. However, after stringent selection processes and rigorous training, I found myself in a situation where I had to choose between my lifelong dream and critical personal challenges. Here is my story of leaving the National Defence Academy (NDA) and the reasons behind it.

Passion for Medicine vs. Army Life

My passion for medicine was unrivaled, but I lacked essential skills that an officer requires. I realized that I may not be able to match the high standards of the army, especially considering my family's history in the armed forces. Additionally, I didn't see much new learning potential in the army environment, knowing that my family already embodied the military culture.

After joining the NDA, I experienced severe mental and emotional distress. Despite my initial determination to succeed, I clung to a fellow cadet who wanted to leave. This influenced me to consider leaving as well, proving my vulnerability. The rigidity of the army's rules and policies, especially regarding medical disqualification, added to my frustration.

Personal Struggles and Mental Instability

With each setback and internal conflict, my resolve weakened. I was thrust into a situation where I faced impossible choices. My dreams were shattered, and the psychological impact was significant. Here's a timeline of the key events:

I fought hard to secure a position in the NDA through multiple attempts. I joined the academy, but I never felt like I belonged. A fellow SOSA (Senior Officer of Same Age) also wanted to leave, and his influence pushed me further towards leaving. Multiple counseling sessions didn't help, and I made the decision to leave impulsively. I resigned, and even my father was taken aback by the decision. The paperwork and procedures followed, and I boarded a plane forever leaving behind the academy. I realized the mistake and tried to rejoin, but the chances were bleak. The rejoining application was finally turned down, and I faced a long period of depression and self-blame.

Conclusion and Reflection

While I left the NDA under unfortunate circumstances, I've learned a valuable lesson. I respect the services of the tri-forces and all the brave individuals who serve. I now pursue my medical career, never forgetting the sacrifices made by others. Jai Hind!