Exploring My Solo Activities and Enjoying My Inner World
When solitude comes knocking, many perceive it as a challenge or an unpleasure. However, for me, being alone is a profound state of self-awareness and personal exploration. It is during these moments that I truly embrace who I am, trusting and relying on myself.
Embracing the Solitude
Being alone is not about being lonely; it's about being comfortable with oneself and the choices one makes. It’s a state of trust and belief in one’s own company. When I am alone, I am the only person I can count on, the only one who sees me without judgment. This independence is something I cherish and hope to maintain for the rest of my life. No more will I accept disrespectful treatment that makes me feel worthless.
A Diminishing Derision
I engage in all sorts of activities when I am alone—meditation, wandering through the woods, riding motorcycles, writing, reading, and creating art. These are not limited to just me; my spouse also enjoys having her personal space, reinforcing the idea that solitude is not an isolating condition but a time of self-reflection and personal growth.
Writing and Storytelling
One of my favorite activities is writing stories. In the past, I wrote extensively for my ex-wife to provide her with calm and solace. My experience in screenwriting as a graduate degree has allowed me to explore different forms of storytelling through television and film. It's a way to express my innermost thoughts and feelings, and to connect with an audience in a profound way.
Reading and Listening to Music
Reading and listening to music are essential parts of my alone time. These activities help me to immerse myself in different worlds and experiences, allowing for self-exploration and relaxation. Music, in particular, has a way of touching the soul and providing comfort when I am alone.
Watching Movies
Watching a good movie, free from interruptions, is another cherished activity. It's a perfect way to unwind and escape into the story, letting my imagination run wild. This solitude offers a unique chance to enjoy the film without any external pressures or expectations.
Adapting to Different Moods
My mood often dictates what I do when I am alone. On some days, I might feel tired and stay in bed until the late morning. On other days, when I am active and enthusiastic, solitude can be joyful. This is the time when I undertake various indoor activities and even create fashion shows in front of the mirror. I may be the last and third child, but my upbringing has made me more like a male, which often means I dress more femininely. However, whenever possible, I wear sarees to embrace my heritage. Today, I revealed a secret: I capture and hide these photos in a locked folder to cherish the moments.
Art and Boredom
When I get bored while being alone, I draw something. Although I am not a professional artist, I enjoy the process of sketching and creating. My most recent drawing was done while I was alone, and even though it's not frequent, it brings a joy that is truly unique.
Conclusion
Being alone is not just about survival; it's about indulgence and enjoyment. It's a time to explore one's inner world and engage in activities that bring joy and contentment. So, embrace your solitude, for it is a powerful way to grow and thrive.