Balancing Dreams and Reality: A Diarist’s Struggle to Become a Writer
As a writer, I have often found myself at odds with my father's expectations. For years, he has pushed me to follow a path that aligns with his own values, but the truth is, my heart lies elsewhere. This diary entry captures the emotional journey of someone conflicted between pursuing their true passion and fulfilling the traditional path laid out for them.
An Ongoing Conflict With Father
Today, yet another argument with my father about my future career plans erupted. Despite the countless times I've tried to explain the depth of my love for writing, his unwavering belief in medicine remains strong. He continues to push the idea that a career in medicine is the only stable and respectable path for a young man.
While I understand my father's perspective, it doesn't align with my aspirations. When I think about crafting stories that evoke emotions and create vivid imagery in the minds of readers, my heart sings. The prospect of spending my days in the sterile confines of a medical office or studying medical textbooks fills me with dread. My analytical mind may be suited for medicine, but my soul yearns for something more.
The Highly Regarded Path
My father believes that a career in medicine promises financial security and a sense of prestige, qualities he associates with true success. He dismisses my passion for writing as a mere hobby, not a viable career. However, I have grown to believe that success is subjective. For me, success is realized by engaging in work that aligns with my passions and allows me to express my creative spirit. Despite his well-meaning advice, he struggles to see the value in my aspirations.
It's a painful realization, knowing that my father's rejection of my chosen path feels like a rejection of who I am. While he undoubtedly wants the best for me, I can't help but feel that he is closing the door on a part of my true self. The fear of disappointing him haunts me, but I also can't bear the thought of living a life unfulfilling and devoid of the joy that writing brings me.
I am torn between the desire to please my father and the need to follow my heart. Writing is my dream, my calling. I feel that I must find the courage to stand up for myself and pursue the path that will make me genuinely happy, even if it means going against my father's wishes. After all, it is my life to live, and my dreams to pursue.
Learning from Michael Crichton's Example
Amidst all the doubts and conflicts, I find comfort in the example of Michael Crichton, a renowned author who also achieved success as a physician. Crichton's journey demonstrates that it is possible to carve out both a career in medicine and a successful writing career. If he could do it, why can't I? His story reminds me that chasing my dreams is just as important as following conventional paths.
I am driven by the belief that I can reconcile my dreams with the practical advice and support of my loved ones. While I may still face challenges and potential disappointment, I remain committed to writing and sharing my stories with the world. Perhaps one day, my father will come to accept and support my choice, even if he doesn't fully understand it. For now, all I can do is stay true to myself and keep writing, pouring my heart into the stories that I am passionate about.